hey yalllllll
ugh I’m dealing with an experience in which I ordered some boots online and my toe is kind of hitting the front of the boot, but I don’t really feel like returning them and even if I did they don’t offer half sizes so the next size up would probably be too big— does any of that resonate with you??? sound off in the comments
it’s bravely monday again and I’m here to sexy and to little and to email with my favorite crew in the world, that’s right I’m talking about my gorgeous MSLE community!!! can you tell I used the sweetgreen app today? anyways, it’s 5:33pm and I’m sitting in my small boots and bathrobe listening to classical music on spotify. at first the music felt haunting and gorgeous, academic even! but now it’s kind of cutesy and annoying…almost like disney vibes, which is making me feel not chic. are y’all vibing with me right now???
I don’t have much to say today (JK) except that I had a fab doctor’s appointment this morning (check up vibes) where I made one doctor and two nurses laugh, which is literally life’s greatest pleasure. I just love being liked plus I’m a hypochondriac so doctors are so precious to me. Making a doctor laugh? an amazing mashup!
In other news, I’m trying to separate from my need for external validation, but we’ll tackle that next week! until then, I’m going to share some poems below and then meet some friends in the park for a drink…I know I wasn’t drinking last week, but then I got bored so here we are! Is this healthy? Don’t answer that! Love you all deeply and romantically. I think I need an apartment with a balcony…anyways! have a great night and chat soon ugh I miss yall already XO
park poem
god I need a canopy bed
& something to live for
a bicycle with a basket
& somewhere to take it
a landline where
you can only call
with good newspoem I wrote after I think I got my period (but just brown stuff so far)
my new healer June
says alcohol is an energy
she can clear out of my system
I’m like
who wants to tell her?
I do breathwork on the floor
I tell my doctor he should
check my thyroid because I had a dream about that
literally what does everyone do all day?poem I wrote after I bought off-brand airpods for once
nothing like seeing a close-up
of my spread wet pussy
as I scroll through our texts
trying to find the meditation
you sent me on “transforming anger”
sometimes I forget about masturbation
and then I do it and I’m like
okay whoever invented this whole situation
got something rightpoem I wrote after I got sad about cauliflower rice
my new boots are little small
but fuck me I’m not about to return them
I’d rather walk around and complain
about how my new boots are a little small
its okay its fine everyone I know and don’t will die
I forgot what else I was supposed to do today
so I think I will just not do itvoicemail poem
god help me remember the password
that lets me into the portal
my doctor insists
on collaborating with me through
I call you back around 11
and tell you I’m trying to figure out how I want my life to be
you’re happy and naked
talking about golf and eating a burger
that looks so good
my trainer and I are trying to get my ass to go up
high high above my head
it takes a village!poem I wrote after I washed my hair for once
June says I should listen to classical music
to connect with the divine
that’s easy enough
I feel so taken care of
by spotify is it bad
I just ordered a tennis bag on amazon
I keep picturing myself
chopping big carrots into sticks
instead of buying the baby bags
I could do that
I could put the sticks in a bowl of water in the fridge
I knew someone who did that
it’s so wild when a beautiful girl wears jeans
it’s like…wait why doesn’t that work on me
why didn’t I have the classic idea to wear a t-shirt and jeans
why am I wearing a translucent top to dinner with your parents
I should have at least worn a bra that doesn’t show my nipples
I like my nipples though
I’m even okay with them being on TV
don’t love typing the word nipples but that’s what’s happeningoctober poem
I love this perfect month
when certain slant of light
comes through the window
I feel something close to pleasure
are we supposed to keep these little metal retainers on our teeth until death?
P.S. I’m on two very fun podcasts today— The JTrain Podcast with Jared Freid and Early Work with Rhys James <3 Click to Listen!!! love those guys!!!
XOXO
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drop your classical music playlist !!
omg not to be the first person to comment but i have a pair of platform sneakers that are just a tad too small because my second toe is so long (ew) but ya i have tried the size up and theyre way too big no half sized so i just force my grossly long toe into the shoe :-// sorry to be the first oversharing comment