❤️beep beep boop boop it’s citty cat cappuccino (the nickname only i call myself) & i’m typing this in the car because i’m modern!!! sorry this week’s sexy little email is late— i’ve been in glacier national park with my lover and there’s no service there which is SO fucked up!!! *stage direction: blood pours out of all her holes*❤️
we are now driving from montana to wyoming while listening to the holy trinity (taylor, lana, podcasts about brutal murder) as we traverse through this scenic country of ours!!!
this week we got to get into a fight at the whole foods in boise because i “heard live music on the radio and it reminded me of the past” and also played the world-famous game of golf! i hit the ball so good it even went into the lake!
this past week’s highlight was visiting my gorgeous friend caroline in montana where she raises and sources happy, healthy, antibiotic free & environmentally conscious beef on her very own farm!!! you can order little creek lamb & beef here: https://littlecreekmontana.com/ & make sure to follow sweet caroline at @bigskycaroline on insta 💖
now for this week’s poems:
road trip poem #5
everyone is a coward but at least my ass
looks nice & fat in these $98 leggings
i miss you & this great place in union square
where you can eat so many noodles
without seeing anyone you know
every interaction should be 300 seconds
every food should be cheese
i’m sorry i keep talking about the donner
party on our road trip
i just think if i saw a ghost
i’d stop looking at my phone
🎀
road trip poem #6
i like processed meats
&the idea of ordering corduroy
from a catalog over the phone
i like drinking alone, walking home
after a show & telling you my face looks like
the opposite of the grinch (3 sizes too big
in that polaroid you took of me
because you love me
i like cigarettes but you’re not supposed to
have them. i like watching you play
the world-famous game of golf. you don’t
like when i send my food backat restaurants
but don’t mind if the whole
hotel hears me moan. i just put
a turkey pepperoni in my mouth
&said “best food ever alert” out loud
to no one
time heals all wounds i’m just joking
🦋
road trip poem #7
in glacier the rocks are purple & green& you tell me i should separate my thoughts from my feelings but i feel like i want to jump out of my body& into to a ravine. instead i cry near a waterfall how derivative to be a girl in her 20s who wants to get married one day not even as a joke
💕
road trip poem #8
i love the smell of the heat turning on&
getting fucked in the mouth
i love autumn & emeralds & anywhere
that makes a vodka martini
you could ice skate on. i love new york
&the people there who like me or pretend to
because someone they like
likes me. it’s not complicated you just
cant say anything to anyone who didn’t
know you when you didn’t know you
im so confident and scared and certain
that seeing a tree through a window
is my religion. i hate feeling bad
i don’t even like walking downhill
when someone hates me it hurts
my feelings of course
⭐️
road trip poem #9
i just zoned out while a married person told me they know of an amazing banjo player i think i don’t care about fruit or anything sweet that isn’t chocolate lava cake served on a white tablecloth at a restaurant you get to go to because someone else is in town. one time in LA a wealthy man bought me a deconstructed cobb salad &told me i should never take a job for money i think he has a pied-à-terre i would love to be in a good mood in america
💋road trip poem #10
in idaho i finished my book about new york& had a canned wine we made a big dinner& the sky changed colors. i take a shit in the woods & we have sex & a little bit of shit gets on your shirt & you don’t tell me but i find out anyways. we take some mushrooms & decide that people are so cute in their houses & at the store, paying for things, getting shit where it isn’t supposed to go, waking up the next day we have more sex &cold pizza & that’s all there really is
🌸
🎀pic of me trying on a new personality🎀
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