I’ll say it again— what a world to be in !!!!!!!! last day before Biden becomes prez o my god
i feel
wild
one time my bf asked why girls love wearing cheetah print jackets and I said it’s a secret universal symbol that we gals send out to each other to say “I’m not your average gal, I’m…an interesting gal" speaking of being interesting- I was interviewed in interview mag (say that again 12 times fast lmAO) and you can even read it here:
Currently, I’m alone in a house eating a cucumber. I took a hot bath and I will read a book about murder. I only like the beach in winter. I’m at the beach now because at my apartment in new york I kept crying every hour on my rug in child’s pose due to depression? so I rented a car and went to the world famous the hamptons. I only like the beach in winter.
jogging in the sand is of course some kind of sick joke, but we try. I “run” so slow that people on the beach ask if I’m okay (I’m not) I listen to an audiobook that says I’ll be able to stop binge eating if I tap into the “universal mind”— I’m like babe do u mean god? people are scared to talk about god because republicans ruined the whole idea of that. sad!
people are obsessed with knowing who everyone is having sex with (I just watched the Tiger Woods documentary) I can like a documentary about anything if there is string music in the background and someone is scorned and/or on drugs. my boyfriend is so good at golf which is random and hot obviously. I think he is coming here tomorrow on a train. love that guy!
as I mentioned, I’m alone in a house and haven’t seen anyone in a few days but for the man at the hardware store who wanted to charge me a quarter for a paper bag so I carried 4 rolls of toilet paper home in my tiny paws. who carries around a quarter in their pocket in 2021?
I’m having a thought right now which is I don’t think I got my period the whole time Trump was president? I have polycystic ovaries, which means idk……honestly doctors are like “WhAt iS GuRL L0L” but basically it means my period are irregular and I don’t really get them, which is convenient for wearing white pants from Everlane, but definitely bad for the overall Mood I Am In. My therapist is convinced if I get my period things will start looking up for me.
I had it once or twice in 2019 after taking the morning after pill, but I can’t remember the last time I naturally Shed My Uterine Lining …ok who’s the doctor now BiTCH?! BUT the point is - today after my run (generous term) I went to lie on the couch and felt something akin to cramps coming on…I stuck my fingers in my hole like a good little slut and saw a little brown clumpy bit so things are MOVING <3 I hope that with a new president, my period will also come. don’t worry I’m not preg, I took a test the other night and it was negative by the WAY i always just pee on the stick but in movies and at the gyno they pee in a cup and dip the stick in the cup like fundip vibes am I gross and dumb or lazy and relentless? sound ORF in the comms
!!!! NOW !!!!
This week I have literally such a special treat for u BECAUSE I wrote special poems inspired by some paintings I’m in love with. I came across them on twitter and reached out to the artist Mack Brim (@madamemack on insta and twitter) to see if she would let me write poems inspired by her work. here is the result of that collab actually:
I left breadcrumbs in her bed, hoping you’d find your way home
Oil Painting on Canvas
Painting Poem #1
therapy is just paying someone in reading glasses
to tell you it’s okay not to feel good I love
how things get easier eventually
I could have a nice time
I could read about jam for hours
fruit and sugar and lemon, a stove
why is it so easy to get pregnant
and so hard to get a house?
down the rabbit hole
Oil Painting on Canvas
Painting Poem #2
it’s so trendy to breath in through your nose
and out through your mouth
god everything is so the same
remember when you showed up in London
at the desk in Lily’s room?
we weren’t together but you broke up with me
I cried because I had wet hair
Release
Oil Painting on Canvas
Painting Poem #3
fuck I am at peace
fuck I am relaxed this year
our president is getting impeached again
at least we don’t
have to use paper
maps to get places
PPE
Oil Painting on Canvas
Painting Poem #4
it can be better to read about someone
than to read their work itself
I’m taking the day off so I can air out my pussy
after I shave it for someone named josh apparently
I can’t believe wanting to be liked
won’t make me a great artist
Faking it
Oil Painting on Canvas
Painting Poem #5
boyfriends love to make you
ask what they’re thinking
boyfriends love to be sweet for a bit
is this really what I want
or does it just feel
like the next thing to have?
call before you come
oil painting on canvas
Painting Poem #6
when you’re old and don’t have wet hair
you can make tea with a mesh ball
is getting over something the same as
becoming accustomed to feeling bad?
lately everything seems so irrelevant
what’s the most romantic way to text
someone that you’ve shaved your pussy?
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Thanks to Mack for the inspo and thanks to you all for reading. You can check out more of her work on insta and twitter @madamemack and look at her shop here: https://www.mackbrim.com/shop <3
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Thanks queen, from a fellow interesting cheetah print gal